Growing in the Sunshine

“I was normally a coward, a very coward. It couldn't be said that I felt fear only because I couldn't bear the heavy burden of the revolution. Thanks to my superior cowardice, I would not dare to move from one room to another alone. “I wonder who I attracted to?” There were many times I said "I don't know who I'm talking to" and just passed on. Because I didn't have an answer. Muhammad was very brave. Gulê was at least as brave as him. Azime fought against Muhammad with his courage. Fatma could move around the rooms easily. Ahmet was quiet but not a coward. Sharê looked like Muhammad, so he was not a coward. So why was I a coward? Apparently, cowardice was my share in the Sido family, and my cowardice was known to my family. Emel, the beloved coward of the family! Now, if Besê saw me waiting here alone at this time of the night, she would definitely swallow her little tongue in astonishment. Even I am surprised, because I am not afraid at all anymore. So what! Here, people first kill their fears..."